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Ciao, ragazzi! My Emergency Room rotation has been starting since last Monday and I'm having day-offs until next Thursday. Yes, people, the pleasure of not having to wake up at 4 am in Monday and go for 3-hours drive is truly a bliss. I've been feeling twisted about this 4 months I'm gonna spend in ER. We'll have so many day-offs, for sure, but being stuck in the same room for a long time could be really boring, don't you think? However, I'm still feeling excited about tomorrow. I've been making my to-do list, gonna run some errands I've been holding back all along. 

Yes, I'm a professional procrastinator :D

Not much update from Palabuhan Ratu. I've finished my rotation in surgery ward and had some more seafood fiestas with the doctors. I kinda had a mood drop in the last days of my week, because my patient died. I know, I should start feeling empathy instead of sympathy. I know I know, crying over every single one of your dead patients will cost me my tears, feelings, and it changes nothing. So I gotta harden this soft-side of me and try to embrace the reality that some things are just not under my control. 

I know, my life in 2012 been extremely dull. I haven't done anything exciting. Well, actually, I did apply for some academic & non-academic stuff, because I want to explore something new, meet new people, and to challenge myself further. But well, I can't brag about it until I finally have it, right? Let's keep the hopes high and we'll see if any of those work out for me. 

Anyway, have you ever felt you have so much to say in your mind you can't choose which one to speak out? I got so many stuff going on in my mind. Well, I've always been a deep thinker, an over-thinker sometimes. But lately, I've been thinking much about life. How my past & people around me have shaped me. Every single thing, good or bad, happened for a reason, and now -probably because I'm getting older I'm getting wiser(?)- I can finally fit all the puzzle pieces into one frame and see the big picture. I see life in a different perspective. Well, I can't tell you about it here because it would be a long, boring, more-like-preaching blog post. If you wanna discuss some heavy topics, I'm here :). I've been trying to find a partner to talk about these absurd things because it's not the kind of topic that you can have in brief brunch conversation. So it's been really hard to find a 'debate' partner for me. Found one, lost him. But, lately I found another guy who can relate to my jumping thoughts. I just wish I get another chance to spill out all my thoughts with him before it gets rotten inside. 

Okay, enough with the blabbering. Tomorrow, I'm participating in #NoComplaintWeek held by @newsplatter. You can read more about it here. Not that I complain so much, but sometimes, it's good to be a part of something positive. Have a good start tomorrow.

xxx

Plastic Heart

Hi! Sorry for the prolong absence!! Honestly, there’s nothing much going on with my life. I’m still working in RSUD Palabuhan Ratu. I already passed the pediatric ward, interna ward, high care unit, and now I’m in the surgery ward. This ward is so much better than my rotation in HCU. It was very depressing, since some of my patients died there. I know, it was inevitable, but still.. it sucked all my happy feeling for the rest of the day. Moreover, there was too much leisure time, I ran out of things to do. I finished my follow-ups at 9.30 and simply got nothing to do until my shift ended at 2. But now, I get to scrub in to almost every surgery every day. So after I finish follow-ups and writing statuses/resumes, I can assist surgery with the surgeon. The nurses are all friendly & funny, so there’s never been a dull moment in the surgery room. 

However, I’m so not looking forward to March when I’ll have my rotation in the Emergency Room. Yes, I’ll be stuck there for another 4 months. I know, it’s not as hectic as the ward rotation and I will have sooooo many day-offs. But come on, 4 months in the same room? That’s gonna be plain boring. I don’t even know what to do during my day-offs. All of my friends will be working as well and then… I’ll be idle all week long. Urgh. 

So anyway, enough with the whining. I’m sorry, blame it on the hormones haha.

Now it’s time for some good stories. Palabuhan Ratu is at its best nowadays. The sun is shining brightly during the day, it makes the sea shimmers in greenish color. It’s so pretty. If only the waves aren’t so dangerous, I would’ve swum on hot sunny day. We’ve been having some great culinary trip too. Last week we had a lunch treat by a pharmacy, that was surely the best seafood galore we've had so far. We also tried some fresh mini lobsters in a local restaurant on the beach which was owned by our patient. Actually, there isn't much variety of food here. So, it’s always a pleasure to try a new restaurant while strolling around the city. 

As for weekend.. I’ve been having great rendezvous with my best friends. I went to Jakarta… almost every weekend in the past 4 weeks. It’s been tiring, but thankfully, every trip I made was worth the quality time. I’m so looking forward to this weekend, ‘coz one of our colleagues is getting married and we’re all going to come. So... big YEAY for the big reunion! Oh yes, and I am now in a desperate need of a quick getaway to Cisarua or Bandung. That’d be a great intermezzo in the midst of this flat phase of my life.

Talk to you soon. Hopefully when I’m in a better mood. Enjoy the rest of your week! Bacio.

PS: I miss my mother so much, thank God she’ll be back next month. :)

I wish that you were here or I were there or we were together anywhere

Had a lovely visit from my friends today in Palabuhan Ratu. Well, actually they're visiting their lovers here, I'm just the sidekick. But who cares, I can still hang out with them. LOL. Took them to our favorite seafood restaurant by the beach and spent the entire evening playing with the waves and watching sunset. I've been procrastinating the assignments for next Thursday. Skype-ing with my mom and best friend were definitely a better way to kill the night. I am now chatting with my little long lost Argentinean brother, Fabio Basso. Gosh, I miss my beautiful people. Okay, I'll post something later on the weekend, hopefully I'll be doing something fun. Hahaha. Ci vediamo, ragazzi! xx

Rendesvous avec tout le monde

Ciao! It's almost 4 am here, and I'm wideeeeee awake. Hahaha. I went to sleep too early and I was restless because I had so many things to do. So here I am finishing my to-do list one by one.  I had a lovely weekend with many of my universities friends, and of course, my best friends. It's amazing how we easily miss each other after only a month being separated. Guess we took our presences for granted back then when we used to have 200-students in a room. :)

So anyway, it's gonna be my last week in ObsGyn ward in RSUD Palabuhan Ratu and I have too many deadlines! Argh. I'm going to have a panic attack sometimes this week. Wish me luck and buonanotte. xxx