Ciao, ragazzi! My Emergency Room rotation has been starting since last Monday and I'm having day-offs until next Thursday. Yes, people, the pleasure of not having to wake up at 4 am in Monday and go for 3-hours drive is truly a bliss. I've been feeling twisted about this 4 months I'm gonna spend in ER. We'll have so many day-offs, for sure, but being stuck in the same room for a long time could be really boring, don't you think? However, I'm still feeling excited about tomorrow. I've been making my to-do list, gonna run some errands I've been holding back all along.
Yes, I'm a professional procrastinator :D
Not much update from Palabuhan Ratu. I've finished my rotation in surgery ward and had some more seafood fiestas with the doctors. I kinda had a mood drop in the last days of my week, because my patient died. I know, I should start feeling empathy instead of sympathy. I know I know, crying over every single one of your dead patients will cost me my tears, feelings, and it changes nothing. So I gotta harden this soft-side of me and try to embrace the reality that some things are just not under my control.
I know, my life in 2012 been extremely dull. I haven't done anything exciting. Well, actually, I did apply for some academic & non-academic stuff, because I want to explore something new, meet new people, and to challenge myself further. But well, I can't brag about it until I finally have it, right? Let's keep the hopes high and we'll see if any of those work out for me.
Anyway, have you ever felt you have so much to say in your mind you can't choose which one to speak out? I got so many stuff going on in my mind. Well, I've always been a deep thinker, an over-thinker sometimes. But lately, I've been thinking much about life. How my past & people around me have shaped me. Every single thing, good or bad, happened for a reason, and now -probably because I'm getting older I'm getting wiser(?)- I can finally fit all the puzzle pieces into one frame and see the big picture. I see life in a different perspective. Well, I can't tell you about it here because it would be a long, boring, more-like-preaching blog post. If you wanna discuss some heavy topics, I'm here :). I've been trying to find a partner to talk about these absurd things because it's not the kind of topic that you can have in brief brunch conversation. So it's been really hard to find a 'debate' partner for me. Found one, lost him. But, lately I found another guy who can relate to my jumping thoughts. I just wish I get another chance to spill out all my thoughts with him before it gets rotten inside.
Okay, enough with the blabbering. Tomorrow, I'm participating in #NoComplaintWeek held by @newsplatter. You can read more about it here. Not that I complain so much, but sometimes, it's good to be a part of something positive. Have a good start tomorrow.
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